on choosing forgiveness

wow, again, and so fast!

it's strange for me to say this, but i feel honored to have just experienced back to back reactions that triggered my limiting beliefs. progress in full force. i am making this happen.

almost immediately after my recovery from my last near immobilization, another fear surfaces with the communication of a loved one.

my mind is enthralled, jealously builds, and guilt forms inside my body. how the simple words of someone else's ascension into living their purpose and resigning from their 9-5 job provokes my mind to belittle me. my mind yells to my sensitive ears, you are not worthy, you are not good enough, you are afraid, you will never do it.

he continues to send tormenting phrases at me, they can do it but you can't.

my soul helps me turn down the volume of my mind. she reminds me, only you can let the feelings of others affect you. when you let yourself be controlled by them, you give up your power. know that you are exactly where you need to be. you are in the right place at the right time pursuing your highest purpose for the greater good. be well and affirm, i accept my past as conditioning for my future and i choose to live in harmony with my own magnificence.

my awareness during this bout surfaced much faster. and as it awakened, it erased all doubt from my mind. 

i choose to forgive myself. i choose forgiveness in the face of jealousy.