i've been struggling with an inner demon for quite some time now. i haven't shared my thoughts on my blog out of fear of disapproval. i was afraid what people would say or worse yet, what you might think about me. but i need something. change needs to happen.

i'm an energy, vibration guy and understand the theory behind how our thoughts create our reality. but it's tough to live it.

i've recognized a "block" in me that's been causing me a lot of inner turmoil. so much unnecessary pain that i was bringing onto myself. all out of fear.

and fear is not my friend, although it likes to pretend it is

it's time to stop thinking that nothing is going my way. it's time to stop believing that everything that is happening that isn't how i first planned is creating a new problem for me to "deal with".

these thoughts created a dark tunnel that i found myself tumbling into. just plain darkness all around

so i said to myself, do you want to be right or happy?

and happiness won.

today, i'm letting go! i'm releasing anything and everything that does not serve me. i'm listening to my own heart for guidance. it's time for a major shift.

to begin, i decided i wanted to start a meditation practice. everyday i'm going to meditate once in the morning and once in the evening. and i'm going to write about my experiences. what i am feeling. what i am observing. how it is making me feel. how i see my life transforming.

i already feel lighter.

and i can feel and see a brilliant white light surrounding my head and pouring into my body. what a beautiful cleansing.

it's time to apply the wisdom Thurman speaks to - it's time to do what makes me feel come alive.

i'm so excited to hear what you think in the comments

thanks for your support, i really appreciate it.

xo

derek